Well, folks, I have no earthly idea of what I'm doing with a blog. My dear friends, Muffin53 and Sarge Charlie, talked me into this. Muffin 53 (Miss Bee) says I'll get the hang of it. Not sure why anyone would want to read it, or why in hell I think I want to "talk" to the world at large. Ego maybe? Our natural inclination to express ourselves? Maybe it's that I just wanna fit in. (Everybody ELSE is blogging!) And here I thought I was such a rebel. Ha!
I'm so glad to see the end of 2006! I lost my beloved mother in May this year. Lost my dad in 1998, so now I'm an orphan. Can you be a middle-aged orphan? I feel like one. Mom was my buddy. We did everything together. Or nothing together. We always found things to talk about. The hole she's left in my life is almost unbearable. The town is the same, her house is still there (still hasn't sold), days come and go, yet it's all so different without her. Irrationally, a few weeks ago, I called her phone number ALMOST convincing myself that she'd answer as always. I've wrestled with terrible clinical depression since she died. Better living through chemistry they say, but I had a real rough ride trying to find what works for me.
Anyway, it's 2007 now and I'm telling myself I can start to pick up and go on and maybe someday it won't hurt so bad. God knows I've got a lot to live for. It's funny how you can completely lose sight of that when depression has you by the tits. Funny weird, not ha-ha. My mom lost three of her sons and her husband and she carried on with so much courage. I've got to try to live the words of a song I had played at her funeral, "May all the courage she put into living, fall like a mantle, and cover my life."
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welcome honey!!! so glad you posted this..... now let me know if you want me to put you on my sidebar, how, er, explicit??? this will be... ha ha
anyway, to get the title and writing customize your blog, edit the header. easy. i see you already have two links that work!! good girl!
bee (penny)
Sure, I'd LOVE to be on your sidebar. Don't know yet how "explicit" I'll be.
oh and for heavens sakes go and meet mo, on my sidebar he is it's a blog eat blog world. you will love him. he and lee are in a long term relationship. he has a wonderful sense of humor too!!! tell him i sent you!
okay i linked you!
Hi Rose
I got you on my sidebar also, good luck with your blog, it is additive
Alright already enough, we want new stuff
Nag nag! I just got started, Charlie, and can barely find my ass with both hands!! Give a gal a break!!
Hi Rose!
I'm Mo from It’s A Blog Eat Blog World
The fabulous Empress Bee guided me here! Sarge is right = blogging can be quite addictive! I started as a way to write something everyday, and along the way, my blog grew into its own entity! I've met incredible people (like Bee) through this medium, and it really has become an important part of my life.
Well, like Bee said: I've got a blog, I'm in a long-term gay relationship (14 yrs), and I have 3 kitties at home & 1 in my gift shop. You can read about my kitties (taking over my sanity) at
Purrchance To Dream
If there's anything I can do to help with your blog, I'd be happy to help! Check out my sites when you get a chance, and leave me a comment (yes, I'm a comment ho).
If you ever need to contact me direct, you can e-mail me
Morgen1967@gmail.com
Welcome To The Blogosphere!
Mo
PS: when you're comfortable with your blog & have a few posts under your belt, just give the word and I'll do a "shout out" post at my site to let everyone know there's a new gal in town, and she's lookin' good!
Yes! you did it, and i am happy to read your blog!
You can get over it, with more friends in our virtual town it would be lighter for you.
Happy new year, and welcome!
Let me know if u need a banner or anything.. :p
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